For the sensitive ones…

Through holding space for a client and really listening to them, I am gifted the opportunity to understand myself better. The specificity of our experience, when deeply attended to is always filled with universal themes.

 Today I worked with a client doing the big stuff. Life threatening disease, big surgery and the quest of navigating the medical establishment and all it’s attendant power dynamics.

 As we discussed the deep themes and learning revealed in this process, something was so clearly illuminated for me.

 For those of us who are very sensitive and artistic, that sensitivity can be such a painful liability as a small child in a dysfunctional family.

 As we trip over the toxic culture our sensitivity can look like anxiety, depression, physical pain and a sense of not knowing how to “do life”. And yet, through that painful bumping up against the illusions of the world we gain the experience the tools and resources we need to do alchemy.

 One day we wake up and we realize that the sensitivity that made us feel broken, different, not robust and not good enough is a super power that allows us to navigate this toxic culture with grace.

 We wake up and realize that we can see in the dark.

 When we are like my client, who is so surrendered to her experience, so open to the growth and evolution of her soul we find grace everywhere.

 It is so pure. There is no whiff of the shaming, blaming, grandiosity and manipulating outcomes that so often accompanies new age beliefs or organized religion. It just looks like living.

 And yet, it seems there are so many of us right now, blinking in the bright beautiful light of love. We are a little dazed, not always trusting but almost certainly through the most difficult stage of the passage.

 Sending so much metta to all of us who have felt messy and in pain and struggled through and who are still brave enough to fall to our knees into the mystery and reality of life to find what lies there in store for us.